Had maths common test today.
Quite okay luh.
But I don't guarantee an A or A+ since I've not been getting any this year lol.
Got back Jap test paper.
Not bad.
35/45.
Was kinda shocked cos I though I'd fail lol.

Anyway so I shall talk about some serious stuff here.
Forgive me if I get too emo..................................................
















How it seems like everyone has a goal, they have something in mind.
And I don't.
They're working towards that goal, and I'm not, because I don't even know what I want.
Up until now, I have not made a decision yet.
I was asked once in January, and I said that I haven't decided.
It's already April and my answer is still the same.
I still don't know what I want.
I don't know how to decide.
I don't know when to start deciding.
I shall now quote an excerpt of a dialogue I had with A (identity shall not be revealed) today.
Shall copy Mr Ken's concept.
'what' shall replace each of A's words.
'duno' shall replace each of my words.

Here goes.

A: What, what what what what?
Me: Duno.
A: What what what what what what what what, what what what what?
Me: Duno. Duno duno duno duno duno duno duno duno?

Don't get it?
Well nevermind.
I'm talking abstract now lol.
Okay I shall reveal the first 3 lines.
Only the first 3 lines.

A: So, what do you want?
Me: Duno.
A: I mean you'd have something in mind right, so what you want?

the funny thing was that I actually more or less had some form of decision at the end of last year.
But when it came to this year I just told myself that I had rethink this decision all over again.
so now I'm sitting on the fence, not knowing what to choose.
I realise I don't have much time left before I would be asked for my answer again.
gah.
I wish I didn't have to answer it.
It's so difficult for me to come to an answer.
To search myself for an answer.
It's so difficult lol.
If only time would stand still.
Then nothing would have to change.
But then again, change is unavoidable.

























"Well Cherisse, now the question is,
Is it that difficult to make a decision?
Or is it because you don't dare to?"























































Think about that and come back here.






LOL.









Well anyway I shall digress from here.
So now here comes the hype about PLTC.
More than 5 guides counting down on their personal messages.
So I guess the take now is 5 patrols.
Including a few sec2 scouts.
This will be the last time as a trainee for a camp.
Yes, that's reality.
It is.
Much as I can't believe it.
It'll be the last time of chionging identities, cheers, packing of peibei and faks, and other camp stuff like mealbags and shorts ):

This 3D2N camp, 60+ hours spent in school, with your patrol, with your jie4.
Whether you get the best out of this camp, is not how your situation is.
It is not based on how many 'imba' people there are in your patrol. (though I don't really support the classification of imba vs not imba)
It is not based on how good you are individually, how much you know, how much you talk.
It is based on your heart and soul and mind.
Put the 3 of them into it, and you'll never go wrong.
You'll walk out of the camp feeling satisfied that you have put in your best for the camp.
Even if your patrol has been thrashed and owned hands down by the rest.
Even if your muscle cells have been producing too much lactic acid that it hurts so much.
Run for your team, not for the glory.
Run not to deliberately impress the audience, but to challenge yourself.

Even if you get into a so-called 'screwed' patrol, (again I don't really support calling your own patrol screwed)
It doesn't mean that PLTC will be 'screwed' for you.
Because it is all in the mind.
It is how you perceive it.
Things won't be that bad if you don't see it that way.

You can't change your situation.
But you can change the way you handle it.
Don't focus on the problem.
Focus on the solutions.
Don't focus on the question asking you to sketch a curve and get stuck there because you hate sketching curves.
Focus on how to find the turning points, x-intercepts, y-intercepts, etc.
And there, you can sketch your curve now.
Problem solved yay! :D
Move on.

Hope this motivational post works lol.